Another sleepless night.....

Merriam-Webster Dictionary define's insomnia as " prolonged and usually abnormal inability to obtain adequate sleep".


That's me. For the past 2 months, I've been unable to get a good night's rest. I take that back. For about 5 years, I haven't been able to do it. Oh sure...there have been many nights I've come home and passed out from either over indulgence in alcohol or cold medication...but I don't really count those nights. The day after always proved to be "hangover" day.

I've tried just about everything. Cutting back on caffiene...refraining from heavy meals...Even cutting back *gasp* LIQUOR!!! to no avail. My doctor has pretty much begged me to go on Ambien. I tell him no fuckin way. I don't want another pill to take. I want to know WHY I'm not sleeping. Why my brain refuses to slow down for me to get at least 6 hours of sleep. Hell, even when I do go to sleep, my dreams are so vivid and adventerous, I wake up feeling more exhausted than when I went to bed.

Tonight is no different. I had a pretty uneventful day. I went up to school to make sure I could take back the withdrawal form I put in...went and got my nails done...and did some highlights for J's mom. That took awhile. Woman has alot of hair. My feet and all were pretty tired when I was done. I came home...checked my email....and decided to go to bed. I fluffed my pillows, replaced my comforter, set the AC down low, and layed down. And stared at the ceiling. *blink blink* *blink blink* I ran through my mind the next four days. Why? I wish I knew. Cookie came and flopped on me wanting a belly rub. I obliged. I felt my eyes getting heavy. I rolled over (I'm a side sleeper) and.......stared at the wall.



I got up and decided to finish reading the book J wrote. As I was reading, I started getting sleepy. Not that the story was boring.....reading relaxes me. I finished the manuscript and threw it down and turned out the light. Nothing.

I get up and come to the computer. I pulled up Craigslist...same stupid sheeple bitching about tipping, black people, Jesus, and the government. I decided to pull up Perez's website. Mmm....celeb gossip is enough to get me in the mood for sleep. I click on the link and..........NO PAGE!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! Very funny up there.....Veeeeeery funny indeed. Touche', God.


So apparantly Perezzer's site is down. And that makes O face sad. *pout* Yeah yeah yeah. Its my party and I'll cry if I want to.



As if this blog isn't punishment enough to read...here's one of my favorite videos:

I think I was a tranny in a past life. Go figure.

Welcome.....to my world. Be afraid.

Greetings....



I feel rather "behind the times" since I am JUST now signing up for a blog. Yeah...I've posted on myspace. But its become a bore to me now. Like a child who has grown tired of her shiny new toy. I even tried Facebook......yet to be annoyed and bored. So here I am gracing the intraweb with my little touch of fabulousness. Ha.

A bit about me:

-I'm 28. Born and raised in Pensacola, FL. I've always seen life outside the Sunshine state for myself. 2 1/2 years ago I FINALLY did it. I moved away for the last time. Yeah..it took me a couple times to get it right. Its the best thing I could have ever done.

-I live here with my boyfriend....or whatever. I hate the term boyfriend cause it sounds so causal. It evokes images that we've only been together for a few months and gladly tolerate each other till something better comes along. And he's definitely not my fiance' (oh you'll get acquainted with that later on). Anyhow..we have a house in Murfreesboro. *for those not familiar with Tennessee, its just east of Nashville* We have a dog who is the poster child, er...dog...for crack. I think she has a perma stash somewhere in our house. She's 12 pounds of amped up energy...kind of like Nicole Ritchie.

-I am a sometime cosmetology student. Sometime, you ask? Well I've been one for not going to school. TOTALLY out of character for me. Unfortunately we've had some "changes" I've not been too keen on. "Why not switch schools?" Oh...if only life were that simple. Not only do I have to pay present school almost $8000 to release my hours, I'd have to pay new school another $17,000. I just don't have that kind of money. I honestly don't have any money. Ha ha.

-Said boyfriend/whatever (referred to as J from here on out) is in Iraq. Voluntarily. Don't get me started.

-I have a messed up family life. My mother and I don't speak. It used to cause me all sorts of problems, but thanks to supportive friends and medication, it doesn't bother me anymore. And that should bother me....but it doesn't.

-I'm an emotional train wreck. Its been the downfall of many relationships. I can't help it. One thing is for sure...you will ALWAYS know how you stand with me.

-I hate women but love them at the same time. I think females are some of the most beautiful creatures God himself created. I hate the fact that they are some of the most backstabbing, superficial, brutal, hypocritical, stupid hoors alive.

-I hate gossip. I despise it. I won't stand for it. But...I'm OBSESSED with celebrity gossip. I could not tell you why. I guess cause its people I don't know. Perez Hilton and TMZ are visited by me frequently throughout the day.

- I love pin ups...almost to the point of obsession. I think I was born in the wrong era. No, I'm not some stupid hipster... A lot of my older friends refer to my as an "old soul".

-I also love tattoos. I have six. Four were done in a six month period. I like to look at other people's ink as well. Not a big fan of the barbed wires, butterflies, and hearts. And you will NEVER see me with some guys initials on me..no matter how good he hit it.

-I love music..but can't play an instrument. I have a pretty wide music collection. I always enjoy adding new bands to my Ipod's rotation.

-I'm a nerd at heart. I like technology. I like research. I play video games. I'm also turned on by muscle cars. Something about horsepower...hearing an engine growl. Gets my panties moist.


Well...that's all I can think to tell you for now. Feel free to ask anything you wish. Remember to tip your bartender's and waitresses. Till next time....